The "Friend"

Ok, so while my ex was getting it on with his live in girlfriend, I found a "friend".  I made the mistake of falling in love with him.  He knew how I felt, I made it clear.  He made it clear that since I was not divorced fully that nothing more would happen.  Well, I guess he felt guilty or something because something more did become.  I became his "girlfriend" and I told him that I loved him and he said it back.  How happy was I?  Extrememly.

He has his own ex issues, not my place to blog about them, but lets just say that it is an issue with me.  I feel as if I pushed him in a relationship.  He never says Good night, kisses me good night, acts excited to see me when I come to his house, and rarely comes to mine.  The day of my divorce, I thought he would be so happy.  I text him and told him that I am officially Tammy M Mauldin.  His response:  Yay!  You go girl.  Have a good day.  He never called me after that.  Instead of spending the day with me knowing that I can be all his, he went out to dinner with his mother. 

He is the elusive guy.  I absolutely love him, but know that it is not returned.  I keep saying that I should just end things and let him go back to his ex. 

     “Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang
up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will
stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your
hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup
on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his
is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's
her.'”

That quote says everything I want and nothing that he is.  What do i do?  It's just not so easy to walk away and he is not the best communicator.  Ugh!