So, I received a phone call from the Unemployment office they tell me that I have to go down there in person and refile. Quick recap: I was fired on Dec. 16 nd filed for unemployment on the 17th. I was suppose to have a phone interview on 1-10-11. Well they had called and cancelled because they did not contact the right employer. They told me I had to refile my claim. So I go online and refile. Then today I get the call. Now my interview is not until 2-1-11 and I won't receive a check for about a month if my file is approved. I don't know what I am going to do for money. I have 10.00 in my wallet that I am saving for gas. That is literally all that I have. What do people think that we are suppose to live off of when you are unemployed? I have been putting in applications online and picked one up locally, but I am at a loss. There are so many decisions to make. Do I want to stay here close to my son and take a chance on love with a guy that I have doubts? He treats me good. He just doesn't meet the criteria for my "perfect guy". I just wish that I knew what he was going through his mind. Or do i want to go to Florida where there is a guy that is in love with me and I know would take care of me.
I had a relapse tonight. The stress got to me. I ended up cutting myself, taking shots of Patron and taking way too many pills. I just didn't want to wake up. I prayed so hard for God to take me. It is amazing though how good friends seem to contact you in the exact time. They made me feel better and offered me help. Not sure that I would take it. I have some options to look at next week for assistance.
As I was about to pass out, my boyfriend called me and told me to pack because we were going to Virginia to see his brother. i was flattered that he wanted me to go, but driving in my state was risky, but I did it anyway.
I also called my family in Alabama and told them what was going on. There's nothing they can do to help. I have done this to myself. I just am lost.
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